i wish i was cuddled with you right now
i dont know whats wrong with me, but i just want to curl up into a ball and cry in your arms.
i just want to feel safe.
1 month ago - 
1
1 have you ever just sat there at work and thought of all the ways you could kill yourself?
thats what i do from the second i walk into Longhorns. i hate working there so much. i honestly wish that i get into an accident on my drive over to work. thats not healthy. the people there are just so rude. i just dont understand why no one fucking talks to me. i didnt do anything wrong. besides, you guys SUCK HUGE HAIRY BALLSACKS at training! i have no fucking clue on what im doing and the fact that you expect that i know everything is a load of SHIT.
its sad that i look forward to my shifts over at bdubs. i just feel welcomed there and appreciated. i love everyone over there.
Anyways…
i was hoping i wouldnt have to come into work tomorrow and just have danielle work both cashier and greet because its a monday morning so it’ll be slow as shit… but Lewis is a little prick and insists that we have both in the mornings as well. which is pointless. everything over there is so nundane that its not even necessary. i can already tell you whats going to happen. NOTHING.
(Source: lookingstarsbarf, via sleepingintheabyss)
why did i stop using this tumblr?
whatever, ill just start writing in here again.
alright. so i read over some old posts and heres what has happened.
i fell for Gabe. hes fallen for me as well.
i wish there was a way to explain how i feel about him without being cliche’… but there really isnt. i want to give him my all… my everything. there isnt a single thing that i would change about him. hes perfect and makes me unbelieveably happy. every new day with him i fall in love with him more and more. being in his arms makes me feel safe.
i know a few months ago, i was crazy hung up on nick… but looking back at that, i was just so lonely and unhappy with myself, that i just used him as an excuse. i never really had feelings for him like i thought i did.
if there is one thing i know for sure, 100%… is that i am falling in love with Micheal Gabriel Lukas.
call me naive for saying that im falling for him after only dating since feb… but when you know… you know. its crazy.
(Source: cute-land, via owls-love-tea)
(via owls-love-tea)
take each day as a gift
life is too short to live life cautiously. i am more than aware that there are a few things that you shouldnt even risk doing in life like drugs and shit. but other than that, im going to take each day as a gift. God let me live another day for a reason. whether its because something amazing is going to happen that day or years down the road… theres a reason why im alive today.
im going to try my best to be grateful for what i have
you cant stop the wheels of change
dan is actaully talking to me… strange. whatever though. i feel like he just wants to hook up or some shit like that. well fuck that… i just want to be friends and if he doesnt want that then whatever. cuz i only want gabe and im seriously going to make things work with him.
anyways. i got a lot of things to figure out:/ money wise i mean
(Source: uoa, via letsbangtogether)
(via gofuckingnuts)
(via owls-love-tea)
(Source: christinnevanille, via vodkaandvogue)
